I SMILE HIDING TEARS OF GOOBYE

THEME: memories hurt… when they don’t fade… and separations seem bitter with passing time….. 

 

out of conscience, our sights collide,

as i dived deep into her mystic eyes,
there was something special and i felt it,
the smile was there but the mystery was a bit.
never knew her before and may never meet her again,
i swear, if lies had wings, they would fly without saying,
just was her rectitude in smile and unsaid emotions in eyes,
i still remember your beauty, ephemeral like the red wine,
not tiring my eyes, a portrait Almighty never painted enough,
not a shade on the page, yet His imagination’s power is you.
 
the walk to Hazi Ali is deep seated like the arteries,
precious yet the purest forms, i found so secured,
every-time you looked behind in search of me,
your images etched deep in my chest that is beating,
i wish that i could have made it till the end there,
or at least would have never left your hand,
 just walked you there, the priced moment in my life,
as the salt waters entered my mouth, 
i looked at you, to find your eyes gazing at mine,
was the most beautiful moment and will ever be.
 
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i don’t know, will you even try to find me anymore
or have i just become a lost soul in your collage of memoirs?
moments have passed and so have days since then,
but, the estrangement has given me a painful time to hem,
as i walk through this beach with transient footsteps,
with fresh memories, i walk ahead alone, but not lonely,
those beautiful moments are with me and will ever be,
i have tried my best to find you, may be
it is what i should accept, yet i smile hiding tears
of detachment that spurt from within,
as my dad says, smile even when it hurts it’s a test.
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TOUGH to find, …

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TOUGH to find, TOUGHER to let go

the truth is in our lives, there are obviously few special persons for whom we can walk that extra mile, even when our body has given up. 
the happiest feeling is when they appreciate it and can understand the inclination towards the friendship. 
it is the beauty of any relationship. 
VALUE THE TRUE FRIENDS…. TOUGH to find, TOUGHER to let go… 
Photo: the truth is in our lives, there are obviously few special persons for whom we can walk that extra mile, even when our body has given up. 
the happiest feeling is when they appreciate it and can understand the inclination towards the friendship. 
it is the beauty of any relationship. :)
VALUE THE TRUE FRIENDS.... TOUGH to find, TOUGHER to let go... :)

About you

i try not to think about you,

  i try not to pray about you,

but, whenever i close my eyes to pray,Image
only your face flashes and i wish you had stayed.

seconds mutely transform into ages
memories are just like crystal images,
never saw separation on the balls then,
but, now, just want to bury in this moment.

on my grave, not put red roses of love,
lamenting soul just asks to be shoved,
on my grave, your tears just drop now,
girl, where was your love when crashed my heart with sound?

TILL THE CRESCENT GROWS UP.

 
interminable waves of emotion gushes in,
when my eyes wink in your memories,
less i aspire to move ahead in
the space of time without a memory.
 
the sun is about to slumber in the pale sky,
night is about to lend its blanket,
with the exuberant stars, instilling shine and life
to the folks, joy in immense packets.
 
but, somewhere an awaiting soul seeks,
the rudiments after the carnage,
it has been four months since then, blinks
yet remind me of our sentiments.
 
it is undeniable, you fancied to start a-new,
 without looking back, erasing the truth,
the perpetual promises just kiss the dust now,
as you don’t wish to even eye at me too.
 
well, my allies advise me to get a kick-start now,
to reincarnate my life, i wish it was easy,
friends, you plod with panache and glory,
i bedeck my life with relic memories.
 
days have changes with echoing nights,
terrifying my soul, i wish to throw the light,
on your face today to let it shine,
to see you smile and capture each time.
 
i just want to confide few mysteries,
you were the closest that anyone ever could be,
you were the best in me through my eyes,
i see you walking away, request you to stay.
 
admittance of guilt has come through now,
don’t know what stops you to love me now,
we were in the ninth cloud, when you
shoved me down, i am just astounded.
 
queries fetch dry and painful replies, 
may be, you will fail to know my immortal
and unheard love for you,
even if you do, will it even matter to you?
 
astrophysicist, right? no more mine,
is all that you uttered with the stringent lines,
just fetch me smack to bid adieu to life,
and breathe in vows of empty lies.
 
you could have stayed with me then,
when i snapped out, you could have,
held my hand and said, “Jonty calm down,”
you did not have to cut me off, right?
 
well, i think chances are made to be gives,
and faults are made to be corrected,
one more chance to love you, my girl,
till the crescent grows up, be my heart to just beat too.
 
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