Glitch is neither in the frontiers we hail from, nor in the letters our tongue rolls to express, but blessing is in the blissful unity that vicissitudes of race illustrate.
THEME: memories hurt… when they don’t fade… and separations seem bitter with passing time…..
out of conscience, our sights collide,
subject: lodging grievances against the intolerable misery.
when this new year began, i was wished HAPPY NEW YEAR by my friends and acquaintances. even, i thought that even after all the turmoil that my life had gone through since the past November, there must be a shining end to this nocturnal sorrow. but, it is with great sadness that i inform you regarding a poor performance by 2013 in my life.
it is with great sorrow that you soared me to exhilarating success and suicidal debacles without even giving me enough time to taste the crests. getting a chance in Medical exam was by far the biggest achievement in my life and i just started to feel the magic when the treacherous arms of yours snatched my success. you taught me that, it is not the RANK that is important for education here, it is POWER AND MONEY. let’s not forget, LUCK!
since the last November, i have gone through the toughest time of my life and i just got a feeling, it will continue to be so throughout this year. still, it is a Letter of hope, that the wand of magic might turn my fate around. maybe, i will never get back the girl that i lost, the love that i pilfered, the ambitions that were drenched; but it is my sober request that don’t give me happiness and love to snatch them away in a blink.
“we have been friends over a long time, but since the last few months, i think i have started to like you”-
this is the statement which we like to say when we fall for someone who is a dear friend of us. but, it is just a like because the real emotions never take the form of words to express. so many times, many good boy-girl friendships turn into both sided-love, but neither of them are able to express their emotions.
“may be, if i say her/him that i like him, i may lose her/him forever.” it is this provident attitude of loss of the beloved one that chokes us from spitting our emotions. we never want to lose that person forever and endure their sharp machetes of recoil. it is obvious that this fear is the biggest obstacle and yet it is the only door to take the relationship to a new and beautiful level.
it is often a point of debate of human emotions that, how can we love our friends but not make friends our love of life? generally, when emotions take the form of words, it results in a big outburst and stress for both of them, or may be not. we never know what the other person, who we regard as our friend and may have fallen for, may also share the same emotions for us. so, my dear readers, if you have a friend in your life, whom you sort of love and spend your life with, just express your love for her/him.
you may never know, she/he must be the one whom your life was waiting for to add colors to it. don’t fear of the loss, true friends share the same emotions. just wreathe words to your emotions in the most optimistic and heart-touching fashion, there is always a positive ray of light on the other side of your providence. go for it!
TOUGH to find, TOUGHER to let go
” i think we should break-up now, i promise we will remain good friends”, these are the fragments of her last words that i remember. shattered, as i was to the extremes, but also at the loss of words.
estrangement is the atramentous emotion of our lives. no one wants to get separated from their beloved ones and it is an ache to remember, but which one? the separation or union? quite complicated cornucopia of emotions.
remaining friends with the same person is often a choice left for both of them. some regard it is another way of getting in touch with that person and rest find it too tough to get along. well, it is easier to love your friend, but it is toughest to befriend your love when you see her/him in someone else’s lap.
the truth be told, it has always been her/his love that we crave for and the warmth to keep us smiling. but, when we go through the break-up and still will to remain friends, it is not obvious for both of them to have consent to that.
how can we talk to each other now, but not that close?
how can we walk with each other, but not hands in hands?
how can you think of her/him, but not call her on?
well it needs a tough heart to love someone and give her/him all that you got with no expectations, but it takes a tougher heart to wear a scarf of pretense that you don’t care and remain friends. i don’t know, whether the tough heart or tougher hear is the victor, but i know the loser, it is US, (the boy and the girl).
break up is never the only solution to a misunderstanding. we could have walked a common path based on personal discussions. it will be the regret for long.
“say your heart, not yet over though,
we are not over to love each other, no,
we may hurt and fight, i understand,
but, beyond our love, nothing else can stand“