I SMILE HIDING TEARS OF GOOBYE

THEME: memories hurt… when they don’t fade… and separations seem bitter with passing time….. 

 

out of conscience, our sights collide,

as i dived deep into her mystic eyes,
there was something special and i felt it,
the smile was there but the mystery was a bit.
never knew her before and may never meet her again,
i swear, if lies had wings, they would fly without saying,
just was her rectitude in smile and unsaid emotions in eyes,
i still remember your beauty, ephemeral like the red wine,
not tiring my eyes, a portrait Almighty never painted enough,
not a shade on the page, yet His imagination’s power is you.
 
the walk to Hazi Ali is deep seated like the arteries,
precious yet the purest forms, i found so secured,
every-time you looked behind in search of me,
your images etched deep in my chest that is beating,
i wish that i could have made it till the end there,
or at least would have never left your hand,
 just walked you there, the priced moment in my life,
as the salt waters entered my mouth, 
i looked at you, to find your eyes gazing at mine,
was the most beautiful moment and will ever be.
 
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i don’t know, will you even try to find me anymore
or have i just become a lost soul in your collage of memoirs?
moments have passed and so have days since then,
but, the estrangement has given me a painful time to hem,
as i walk through this beach with transient footsteps,
with fresh memories, i walk ahead alone, but not lonely,
those beautiful moments are with me and will ever be,
i have tried my best to find you, may be
it is what i should accept, yet i smile hiding tears
of detachment that spurt from within,
as my dad says, smile even when it hurts it’s a test.
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LETTER OF HOPE

 

Dear 2013,
subject: lodging grievances against the intolerable misery.

when this new year began, i was wished HAPPY NEW YEAR by my friends and acquaintances. even, i thought that even after all the turmoil that my life had gone through since the past November, there must be a shining end to this nocturnal sorrow. but, it is with great sadness that i inform you regarding a poor performance by 2013 in my life.
it is with great sorrow that you soared me to exhilarating success and suicidal debacles without even giving me enough time to taste the crests. getting a chance in Medical exam was by far the biggest achievement in my life and i just started to feel the magic when the treacherous arms of yours snatched my success. you taught me that, it is not the RANK that is important for education here, it is POWER AND MONEY. let’s not forget, LUCK!
since the last November, i have gone through the toughest time of my life and i just got a feeling, it will continue to be so throughout this year. still, it is a Letter of hope, that the wand of magic might turn my fate around. maybe, i will never get back the girl that i lost, the love that i pilfered, the ambitions that were drenched; but it is my sober request that don’t give me happiness and love to snatch them away in a blink.

 

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Thanking You,