I SMILE HIDING TEARS OF GOOBYE

THEME: memories hurt… when they don’t fade… and separations seem bitter with passing time….. 

 

out of conscience, our sights collide,

as i dived deep into her mystic eyes,
there was something special and i felt it,
the smile was there but the mystery was a bit.
never knew her before and may never meet her again,
i swear, if lies had wings, they would fly without saying,
just was her rectitude in smile and unsaid emotions in eyes,
i still remember your beauty, ephemeral like the red wine,
not tiring my eyes, a portrait Almighty never painted enough,
not a shade on the page, yet His imagination’s power is you.
 
the walk to Hazi Ali is deep seated like the arteries,
precious yet the purest forms, i found so secured,
every-time you looked behind in search of me,
your images etched deep in my chest that is beating,
i wish that i could have made it till the end there,
or at least would have never left your hand,
 just walked you there, the priced moment in my life,
as the salt waters entered my mouth, 
i looked at you, to find your eyes gazing at mine,
was the most beautiful moment and will ever be.
 
Image
 
i don’t know, will you even try to find me anymore
or have i just become a lost soul in your collage of memoirs?
moments have passed and so have days since then,
but, the estrangement has given me a painful time to hem,
as i walk through this beach with transient footsteps,
with fresh memories, i walk ahead alone, but not lonely,
those beautiful moments are with me and will ever be,
i have tried my best to find you, may be
it is what i should accept, yet i smile hiding tears
of detachment that spurt from within,
as my dad says, smile even when it hurts it’s a test.

SATHI AMAR PATHIK (Friend my Companion)

Commotion of empty emotions just flow,

Just from that broken heart to another one,

So less told those stories to anyone, but you,

No listener now, no one to hear those silly words.

 

Burnt out yet so true I suppose, oh my friend,

Dreams could be my only place to live in,

No, I cant reside in the reality so virile, I guess,

As me not shielded, weaker than ever before.

 

These teardrops wont make you feel good, I know!

If you were really with me now, my smile would appease

Thee. So no, guided by your perpetual shine,

I will rise and give thee pride to be friend of mine.

 

Only these remaining days should never be counted as days,

Each one is one to make you smile, if you were really here,

And in the other world, I suppose the chess of life had no loser,

No one to lose but to gain!

 Image

Or may be this is the final world of my imagination,

We never know, yet, till my soul rests in,

The last zephyr over my coffin besides yours, I wish,

Not in this life, but in afterlife, never wish to mislay you.

 

Back to that point where I always start,

To the point without a dimension, without a reason,

Oh! Silly heart attachment’s bitter part is estrangement,

Why thee tie strings too sturdy to break.?

 Biplab Roy

About you

i try not to think about you,

  i try not to pray about you,

but, whenever i close my eyes to pray,Image
only your face flashes and i wish you had stayed.

seconds mutely transform into ages
memories are just like crystal images,
never saw separation on the balls then,
but, now, just want to bury in this moment.

on my grave, not put red roses of love,
lamenting soul just asks to be shoved,
on my grave, your tears just drop now,
girl, where was your love when crashed my heart with sound?