THEME: memories hurt… when they don’t fade… and separations seem bitter with passing time…..
out of conscience, our sights collide,
my dear mom, i just feel so insecure,
a deep mysterious fear just grabs me,
i am crying cats and dogs without a cure,
i need you to just hug me.
something significant pulls me into,
i just don’t understand the reason at all,
continual fear of losing someone to
the grip of time, but she has beforehand crawled.
since many nights, i have been shedding tears,
counting on her fragments of love,
i am falling apart, there is an unknown fear,
just hug me m mother, with umpteen love.
i cannot share these in words with you,
but, my heavy heart will say it all,
find no reason of blaming myself too,
yet dripping tears listen to heart’s broken call.
i often wonder mom, does she ever think of me
or am i just a nobody for her now?
that old fear of losing her smothers me,
please let me sleep in your lap now.
i may have brought you shame,
but, i never thought it would turn so bad,
you know mom, we were going so great,
now, when i think of her, i wonder where was my bad.
you said there are fairies in stories,
where in life are they?
if there were one, i would send my queries,
to chant a spell, to bring a change.
mom, i just want to hide under your chunri,
where nobody can see my tears,
mom, please make me sleep by a lullaby,
i am afraid of my own fears.
i just don’t want to grow up,
mom,i just want to be your little child,
i think, if she had never left me, mom,
i think, i would have never cried.
emotions never see age or gender,
it is just the outburst of memories,
my mom, i feel, like a baby, so tender,
please, mom, just hum me a lullaby.
remember, whenever i don’t find anything,
you find it for me,
mom, i have lost myself altogether over that pixie,
please, mom, find myself for me.
MEANING:chunri: A scarf or wrap worn with most Indian girls’ and boys’ outfits. It can be worn in countless ways
biplab roy (bipstar.ja)
via FIND MYSELF FOR ME.
it is just the perfect time of the life